I’ll admit it. I do tend to be pretty envious/jealous when I see other people my age doing so much more than me. It makes me feel like such a failure to be still here, doing nothing while the others shine and succeed in their lives.
In my 21 years of life, I haven’t even accomplished anything of which that I can be majorly proud of. Le-sigh. There’s always someone smarter, prettier, and better than me. I guess you could say that the opposite is also true. But contentment was never one of my strong traits, along with patience and a horde of other “positive” values.
I’d like to think though, that this lack of contentment with my life in general makes me wanna push forward and be even better than I am now. Which is easier said than done, but that is not the point. The point is, I want so badly to actually feel accomplished that I’m willing to work and work until I reach my goal. So I’m guessing that that is a good thing after all.
Now, I just need an attitude adjustment to stop myself from procrastinating so much and start believing in myself more. I know I can achieve more. Now I just need to know how.