Today, I watched The Pursuit of Happiness. In the movie, Will Smith said that perhaps happiness is something that can only be pursue, perhaps it can never really be yours.
Today, I stopped someone from pursuing his happiness. Because I don’t think that happiness he was pursuing can really be his.
Today, I trampled on someone’s heart all over again. Even if I didn’t want to.
It pains me so, as I loved that person.
It pains me so, to crush that little hope that he was sustaining on.
It pains me so, to turn away a person’s kindness and sacrifices.
It pains me so, to lose that someone because I couldn’t give him what he wanted, even if it was just that little bit of hope.
I wish I could give him that tiny hope he was asking for.
I wish I could just don’t deal with this kind of situation.
I wish I didn’t have to choose between love and friendship.
I wish things didn’t have to change so much.
I wish he would put down the grunges and still be my friend.
I wish everyone would let things be, and not judge.
I wish things I do would not upset anyone.
I wish I could fix everything I had messed up.
I wish for him to be happy.
I wish … I was gone.